its not cos i dint care its cos i was scared

hi peeps i met my x on net on a chat site like facebook we was talkin 4 weeks on end and then one day i asked her if she wanted to meet up into town go 4 a drink or some thing she said yer n we met up we got on so well we had a right laugh n so we said we wud meet up again end so on n then we started goin out we was realy close n then about 16 weeks a go she fell pregnant we dint plan this but it happend i was in shock n scared n ok was may b not showin lot of intrest into this but its not cos i dint care its cos i was scared of what happens next but a few days past n i started to like the idear of been a dad so i talked to her n told her that i was happy about it but am not to shore she belived me any way about 8 weeks a go we lost in are baby i was in shock n dint know what to do or say to her i was at work i got a txt sayin the baby is dead i need u i dint go strait away when i should of i realise i made a very big mistake there n wish i could take the time bk n do things diffrent i told her all this n said i was very sorry that i dint go strait round any way that night i went to see her she was in a real mess i conforted her n said how sorry i was about the bad news n that i am there 4 her n that i love her very much any way things with us was still ok but then bout 2-3 weeks down the line she broke things off with me i was realy gutted as i realy love her i know what i did was wrong but am not a bad person i just made a mistake i love her so much
any way we kept talkin still n i said am still hear 4 u when u need me n u can have as much time as u need she said she still wanted to talk just not see me so i said ok n then on tuesday this week i went to see her suprise her n i did know what she wud say or do but it went well she seemed realy happy to see me n gave me a big hug n said she missed me n still has feelins 4 me we kissed a few times i spent a lot of the last 2 days with her we r gettin on realy well but she keeps sayin we r just mates but we seem to close 4 that n i know she wants me bk its just she findin it hard trustin me again how do i get her to trust me again if ever i want her bk more than any thing so please help any one thanx all



(found in july on a forum)